the next 3 months are going to be intense!

my mum and dad are leaving in a week until the end of may.
fanime at the end of may
vegas/edc the second week of june
vill, ton, mine, my mum, andrei, and rayjohns birthday
camping at the end of june/beginning of july
(possibly) seattle/canada at the end of july
move in august.

my mum says ill be ‘young, wild, and free’ (she loves that song when its on the radio haha) 

ive been up reading harry potter, reading has occupied a large amount of my time lately.. so i turned on my laptop to look up harry potter recipes because i was curious what some of the food looked like haha then i started reading some blogs, somehow ended up listening to bane and started thinking about tattoos. 

ive come to the conclusion id get some hardcore song lyrics tattooed on me merely because i think that was such a vital part of my life, id say i learned so much and had some of the best times of my life.. met a ton of shitty people, met a few good people..had crazy adventures, went to shows non stop. i miss when my biggest problem was finding a ride to a show.

i dont listen to that music much anymore, but when i do all those old feelings come back.. it makes me ridiculously nostalgic. it makes me really happy, but there are bits of sadness; i think thats what music i listened to in my youth does to me though.

i need to be brave.

im sort of afraid of the dark, you never know who might be there or hello, ghosts! im semi paranoid because i think most people have shitty intentions, and i have a failing immune system (constantly sick and no one can figure out why). besides that, im very shy..well, not very—more like introverted? i dont talk much unless i have something to contribute or i have an interest in whatever it is.

i have been taking small steps though..sleeping with the light off, attempting to drink tons of water (apparently that helps every part of your body or something), and i say hi to all of my prof when i see them and whenever someone sits next to me in class i say hi. 

on a scale of 1-10 of brave, i hope im anywhere between a 5.5-7.5 by the time i move or i just dont know, ill be weirder than i already am.